I was reading the story of Jairus, the synagogue ruler who went to Jesus to heal his daughter. I have read this passage many times and actually love the story concerning the bleeding woman who intersects Jairus’ story. I experienced her pain for real and I can identify with her. But this time reading the story found in Mark 5:21-43, I saw something that I hadn’t really seen before. Don’t you just love that about the Bible? I do!
Jesus tells Jairus to believe and sent everyone else away except for Peter, James and John, his inner circle. What I found fascinating was: there are some miracles done in secret while others are done out in the open. The story of the daughter’s healing was a miracle done in secret; only experienced by the parents of the girl and Jesus’ inner circle. No one else was allowed to see what Jesus was going to do. The miracle of the bleeding woman was done in the crowd – everyone heard her testimony immediately after the miracle took place.
I have been pondering on these secret things since I went to a Living Proof Live event back in April. Beth Moore spoke about God’s secrets. He only reveals to us when we are mature enough to keep them until His time of revelation. He gives us the platform to share when He wants the secrets to be shared. Beth pointed out: in this day and age we share everything we know immediately after revelation. We don’t take in what we learn and ponder them before we share them. We take in a word and immediately tweet about it rather than actually letting the word get down into our hearts. This was profound for me. I have been considering this every time I have had a revelation lately. I am discerning what is for me, and what is beneficial for others to know. Sometimes it’s hard to know when to stay silent.
I have been writing my story for the last year, but for the last few weeks I have been diligent about writing. Since reading this passage and pondering on the secret things, I am discerning when it’s time for revelation on my story. My Mom asked me not to share my story until she was gone and I have honored that request. However, I don’t know if it’s something I should share while my Dad is still alive. I don’t have clarity on that time. Not that it has anything bad about him, but it might bring up pain for him that he has already long since forgotten.
I have been called to write my story, so I am obeying in the writing. When it’s time for revelation that is God’s timing and not mine. Discernment is required for all things secret!
“Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it.For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay. Habakkuk 2:2-3